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Fairy Tales

Posted: May 30, 2010 in dreams, mushy stuff, romance

I know I should stop believing…or maybe I shouldn’t— as an eternal optimist I am always the one that wants to believe anything is possible…..
And being an ABSOLUTE romantic in my mind, heart & spirit–I absorb love stories to the core. The problem, I find, these days is they leave me sad and empty like I let that story slip my fingers by turning to logic rather than my heart. What is the difference, really?…well one you turn to b/c you are finally trying to make the right decisions in your life (logic)….stability, etc… and the other is something that pierces your heart and takes your breath away…..something you feel and makes you smile every moment of every day….everything you see turns to poetry in your mind and every breath you share makes you feel more alive.
But that is not perfect either– I mean nothing IS….not looking for perfection…..looking for something that brings my heart to life….something I can write in poetic ways everyday and find something new and amazing in that love.
The Times when I don’t want to go to sleep b/c I don’t want to miss a second with this person…..& can NOT wait for the next day and the new adventures.
These things are never out of reach, but once you make the wrong decisions it is harder to exit them and believe the right ones are still a reality.
Finding yourself @ that point is similar to growing up and defining your personality….a complex process that takes time but still……..
I do NOT care how fucking cheesy or ridiculous I sound……I KNOW…..I will discover the love story I do not yet know….one way or another…………..Destiny always sends us in the right direction….with several lessons along the way.
Maybe I sound retarded but without the belief that the poetry in my head isn’t meant for more than the cage I find myself in I would (and sometimes feel) I would die.
I would rather die than know a life of hopelessness and despair.
GAWD do not get all freaky….I am a fun loving person just with thoughts that are dark, at times…….
To me it’s normal……to not drift off to somewhere else in an illusion you hope you can create is not something I can imagine………
We’re all different…..that is just my take

British Ghosts!!! maybe???

Posted: February 24, 2010 in dreams, ghosts, random, Uncategorized

While I was in Stratford, England (staying @ Shakespeare Hotel) I had a dream that a ghost entered my room. I was extremely tired and fell right into a deep sleep. Almost right away I had a dream that I heard someone try a key in my door. This hotel was older and still used the actually turn keys. I could hear the person attempt to fit the key into the keyhole, but I figured that the key would not work and they would realize that they were at the wrong room. But the key did work and they entered the room.
My room had a sitting area and then you would duck your head thru a passage to the bedroom. I could feel them standing in the sitting area, but figured they would realize someone was in the room and decide to get another room. Even though I was sleeping and lying in bed I could see the person in the sitting area…..It was just an illuminated white figure. I was so tired I thought that I would just wait for them to leave, b/c I did not want to get up. Obviously I was not feeling negative feelings about this person in my room, but it was becoming unsettling- Especially when they ducked thru the passage and stood right at the edge of my bedroom. I thought at that point….Jeez maybe they do not see me b/c I have the covers pulled over my head (I like to bundle up while I sleep). I still was adamant about not wanting to wake up and still felt that they would leave on their own.
Next thing I knew I could feel someone sit down on the bed on the opposite side of where I was sleeping. I could see the illuminated white figure with shoulder length blond hair looking down on me….she had a pleasant face, but I was still very afraid by feeling someone on the bed and especially looking at me. Feeling them on the bed I immediately woke myself up and was never able to go back to sleep.

Even though I never felt negative feelings about the figure, it was still unsettling. I wonder if ghosts do exist and if there really was one in my room. If so I wonder how it is that they choose the people to visit. Do they have positive feelings towards you?? Could you ever become friends with a ghost?? I mean I can’t imagine myself laughing and carrying on a light hearted conversation with a ghost nor have I ever heard of it.